bloooog mooove

haven't really been consistent..

want a fresh start. :)

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Love

"Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation."

C.S. Lewis

my Jesus

Realized I have not written in a while. Sadly, I wish I had more time to write- I think way too much, and alot of these thoughts end up drifting into eternity and being lost. Sometimes I wish I didn't think so much, and just not have an empty head.

Anyways, spring break is here and I am pretty excited for it.

It feels good to be back home, even though it's quite different being gone for so long. Nevertheless, it is refreshing. I am excited to see what God has in store for me. Honestly, I do not know what to expect.. but I know that God will not disappoint. It is not that I am looking for anything radical to happen to me during spring break, I just know that God never fails- in the little or big things.

All in all, my mind is pretty focused on R-E-S-T. Rest in God, on God, through God. Mmm, that's something to think about. What is resting in God, on God, through God.. Haha, there I go again. Anyways, I have a list in my head of things that would be nice to tackle during break. The list consists of playing the guitar, spending time with family, reading, going a little bit ahead for classes, and alot of stuff actually. I do not have anything specifically planned for break, which is good. I feel like I will naturally end up planning each day to do something with people that I have not seen in a while. But I think I've grown a bit more in seeing that my number one priority this break is to plan to meet with Jesus each day, and not give Him leftover time that comes out of my inevitable busy schedule. Already I might have busy plans this weekend visiting U of I, and plans on Wednesday and Thursday with some people. Honestly, sometimes I wish i could clone myself so I could just spend time with every single person. But obviously, my physical finite being limits me- which brings me to my next thought on the nature of God. Dude, how amazing it is that God is not like us, small and finite. Instead, He is an infinite being who CAN spend His time with every single one of us equally. That's hard to comprehend.

I'm going to be honest, my thought about that is.. "I want to be like God, I want to be able to do that". Yet I realize that let's say I do have that ability, would I even be able to love and cherish each person's time and enjoy spending time with each person? My own heart is quite selfish, and it seems that I have to look at why I want to spend time with so many different people. Reflecting, my heart longs for the relationships that God has blessed me with, and it desires for my time to always be spent with people. I'm quite an extrovert, so the willingness and want increases even more! Ultimately, our hearts are built for company and relationships- but not in other people, but in Jesus only. This bring me back to my first point of rest and making spending time with Jesus as a priority. While it's so easy to fill my time with meeting up with people, sharing stories, lovin', having fun, praying for one another, lifting each other to God; all of it is naught in spending time with JESUS. I realize that even the best of intentions and desires can replace our dear jesus. Hopefully I will not make that mistake this break.. :)

Always

For those who don't know, Switchfoot is my favorite band. Jon Foreman, the band's leader writes so beautifully. However, as much as he is the band leader, I really believe that it is the band as a whole that should be given credit - so not just jon foreman. Their music they have PRODUCED have changed over the years, nevertheless, in the end, the music stays true to themselves i feel. This pertains especially to the most recent cd that they have produced- "Hello Hurricane". Maybe one day I'll write about Switchfoot and every single cds they've produced, all my favorite songs they've made, and etc. But today, i'll just write about how beautifully they made this new cd. In general, the way Jon Foreman and his crew have made music, they create and make music with a purpose. Not just to make money (Of course to an extent because money is needed to survive in this capitalist system), but ultimately to move people's souls; or to inspire.

And in the release of Hello Hurricane, they definitely created moving music. And in it, hope rises. I can't stop listening to the songs, and why can't I? Because the sense of hope that rings through the music strikes a chord within my own soul. My favorite song in the cd is "Always". I can't really say much except showing the lyrics of the song, so here it is.

Always.

By Switchfoot

This is the start
This is your heart
This is the day you were born
This is the sun
These are your lungs
This is the day you were born

And I am always yours

These are the scars
Deep in your heart
This is the place you were born
This is the hole
Where most of your soul
Comes ripping out
From the places you’ve been torn

And it is always yours
But I am always yours

Hallelujah!
I’m caving in
Hallelujah!
I’m in love again
Hallelujah!
I’m a wretched man
Hallelujah!
Every breath is a second chance

And it is always yours
And I am always yours.

May I sing this everyday of my life until I die for You Jesus.

"transformed into his likeness with ever-increasingly glory..."

revamped. transformed. this blog is now dedicated to my First Love.

whatever thoughts i shall pour out hopefully will be a blessing unto others, but most importantly glorify the One above.

and now to the good stuff..

"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the LORD's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the LORD, who is the Spirit.

2 Corinthians 3:17-18

got this verse from a friend who is sending verses daily as texts. awsome. hopefully try to memorize these verses, got the first one today, which happened to be this one. a very thought provoking verse isn't it? it just brings so much joy to me reading this verse, i dont' know why. maybe it's because of the complete awe i get when reading how our "unveiled faces" will ALL reflect God's glory, and just becoming more like Him. this is my prayer, and i lift this verse up as my life. hopefully i am continually being transformed in his likeness with ever-increasingly glory, and be one with the Spirit. Just as how this blog, is one with "me", and shows the transformation of my life as it is continually being shaped by jesus, hopefully my life will be like my blog, a tool or an instrument to be shaped by jesus.